He conquers who conquers himself

“Fuck me. I’m so tired of being me. Me beautiful. Me ugly. Blonde. Brunette. A million fucking fashion makeovers that only leave me trapped being me. Who I was before the accident is just a story now. Everything before now, before now, before now, is just a story I carry around. I guess that would apply to anybody in the world. What I need is a new story about who I am. What I need to do is fuck up so bad I can’t save myself.”

In all honesty, there are a lot of things in the world I don’t understand

Religion.. I have no idea how anyone in the world is okay with instilling their faith into a mystical figure that enforces rules to the game of life that set you up to fail. All of you that are contemplating that whole idea of resisting temptation & thus proving yourself, miss me with all that. If I put a bunch of stuff that you enjoy, or a bunch of stuff that pisses you off, scattered around you everywhere you went & told you you couldn’t indulge yourself in any way, shape or form or else judgment would be passed upon you & you’d go to “hell,” you’d tell me I was an asshole. Point blank, period. So, some ..Idolized figure can do that & people worship it? (Idolatry is madd unhealthy, btw.) Maybe it’s because of the pacification religion provides that it’s so widely accepted. So, maybe if in addition to carrying out the aforementioned task of temptation, I also provide “answers” to huge, everlastingly obscure questions such as the origin of the world or humanity. Does receiving & believing in entire theories from an unsubstantiated figure really give you any idea of how humanity came to be? Do you mean to tell me that.. You can’t even verify the legitimacy of this figure, but you can believe that humanity is here because of.. Whatever hearsay theory you heard about this figure’s actions? Qwhaatt? I’m just so confused.. Where is the strength in being able to exist without knowing? Clearly, religious people are okay without knowing whether what they believe in genuinely exists or when it will act.. Why not be equally as okay with just accepting the lack of answers when it comes to certain things? The scariest part is that most religious people don’t have even the slightest doubt in the existence &legitimacy of the very ideal in which they have instilled their every fiber of faith. Religion truly is “the opiate of the masses” (Karl Marx).

And it’s hard for me to take a stand when I would take her any way I can. — John Mayer.

seriously, you win

i cant fight anymore

can you n i just be happy or ok plz

the hard truth

The hard truth is that chances are, your relationship isn’t going to last through your teen years. Even if it seems like it will.We all want to believe in miraculous love, and yes, it exists, and you may find it when you’re young, but chances are something will happen to separate you two. The love will remain, the hope will remain, but a situation will arise that overwhelms the ability to be together with unbreakable obstacles. Let go, if its meant for you two to be together, one of you could go to the moon and back and you’d still end up on the same path as each other in due time.

story of my life

“More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to be close to someone. More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn’t alone. I have tried many times, tried to kill my loneliness with a girl or a woman, and it was never right. We would be together and be close to each other, but no matter how close we were, I still felt alone. They felt that loneliness and it made them want to get closer. When they tried, I either ran or did something to destroy what we felt for each other. I can run fast when I want to run fast, and I’ve always been good at destroying things…

The last one was the only one who made me feel the way I always wanted to feel. She made me feel better than I have ever felt, better than I imagined I could feel, and it scared me, scared me to the point of paralysis. When she offered herself to me, I failed. That failure drove me to destruction. I destroyed her, destroyed me, destroyed the two of us together. I destroyed the hope of a future. She will not speak my name now, nor will she acknowledge my existence. I don’t blame her.”

A Million Little Pieces

Up until recently, amnesia always seemed like the worst thing that could ever happen to me. Who could I be if I couldn’t remember? If we are nothing more than products of the people we’ve met, the situations we’ve found ourselves in, and the experiences we’ve been fortunate enough or unfortunate enough to live, who would I be? ..And not knowing who I was always seemed like the wort of fates I could imagine. Until recently.

Who would I be if I couldn’t remember? I’d be a new person everyday. I wouldn’t remember the positive things that happened to be, so maybe I’d be that much more appreciative of positive things when they did happen—because they’d be a new experience everyday. I’d be a new person everyday. I wouldn’t be fatally tainted and jaded by misfortunes of my past—the things that seem to most mold who we are as we grow. I wouldn’t be worried about yesterday or tomorrow. Maybe I’m naïve even to wish that I wasn’t affected by yesterday or plagued with worries of tomorrow.

I just wanna be a new person everyday.

Id do it all again for her

You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your prides worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
Its terrifying, life, through the darkness
And Id do it all again, Id do it all again

Drained n Untraceable Pain

she takes life out of me sometimes "i dont think i will need your help anymore." Really??... i try hard to help her n talk to her but she always wants more she never see it my way or even cares so much to see it from my point of view things are hard for me too nope do you care NO!!! always about you do i ever hear how are you tiffany or could i help you with something ... n now your mad me n because im trying to get things together for me so i can go to school and my family when your busy do i question you no. i let you work i understand that they are things you have to do but you just think i will send you to voicemail if you really think i would do that then u really dont know me at all.. so your not paying attention ok im doing this for me because when i try to do things for you it never works you say you dont care but when someone really really dont care then just let it go.. My heart broken once more they always get up and leave.God dammit in nothing more do I believe.I've been through so much.Now I sound to selfish.It just hurts bad when I get treated like sh*t. So weak I have become. im not trying to go back to my old habits but i feel them come back

Have u ever felt so lost, But didnt know 'til u were found

In a room full of people,feel like no one's around
Gotcha head in the clouds and my feet are off the ground

I'd risk the fall Just to know how it feels to fly

I've got my eyes closed and my heart open

I'm hoping that you'll take my hand
I can free fall and jump with faith
And know that you will always catch me in the end
I'll put this heart in your hands
So it's yours if you choose
I've packaged this promise
That i hope you don't lose.

Lets Try This

is there enough reason to try?

is there enough reason to try?
If in the end you couldn't be mine
Sometimes I ask myself why
Why can't I get you off my mind?

Do you even think of me?
Would you even want to be with me?
Can you see yourself with me?
Maybe you just love to confuse me